Some background: I’m an instructor at a Full-Stack Coding Bootcamp. So I teach classes everyday, or I prepare for upcoming classes everyday.
You know, teaching, especially in a massive class as the one I’m currently teaching, is making me see people in very terrible situations. Someone who has no business being a developer whatsoever is completely dedicated to this world of tech that she definitely cannot prosper and find peace in, or find whatever she values. It’s sad, she totally believes this path will bring her salvation and maybe redemption. That it’ll set her free if only she gets this right or she accomplishes that goal or figures out how to make this feature work. But I see her butting her head against a brick wall over and over and over again. She’s just stuck and there’s nothing I can do to help her break free. I just have to move on with my life. It’s very sad to see that that’s the normal state of most human beings. Only the exceptions are living in accordance with their nature in peace and can prosper and redeem themselves in their own eyes, and find consistency in their making sense of the world around them.
Some people hide their shame, their self-disgust, the deep need for redemption that they cannot look away from in various ways under various garments and personality traits and habits and jobs and goals and aspirations and things they claim to support and purposes they claim to be all about. It’s really sad for me to see through that and see a deep sense of emptiness underneath a person’s energy, their offer to help someone else, or their effort.
Now this isn’t the case for everyone. I know this lady, I don’t know her personally though, she works two jobs and goes to class. Every once in a while you come across someone truly admirable. Especially if it’s a young person who works honestly and works hard. Works hard to provide for themselves and still keep their ambition of moving forward by whatever means they’ve determined, for example going to class to learn something they wouldn’t have the inner energy to learn on their own.
I truly believe the world is held as high as it stands on the shoulders and backs of a few truly admirable and respectable and wonderful human beings. I believe that list includes the prophets, includes our true leaders, includes good, honest, and strong individuals with integrity.
I believe it’s because of the efforts of such individuals that the rest of us have food, safety, opportunity, a warm bed, a comfortable air conditioner, not have to worry about invaders ruining the delicacy of our economic systems, and a million others things if not even more.
The sad thing I have noticed as an instructor, meeting so many new people, many of them cannot wait to tell me their story, is that most people don’t have it together. Most people are struggling and many of them can barely keep breathing. God knows how many of them cry themselves to sleep at night, simply because the struggles and challenges of life are sometimes too difficult to bare with a smile. Many people I’ve come to realize have such deep emptiness in their hearts and souls. It isn’t a strange experience for most people.
On that note, I lay this post to rest.